Cat & Paul… The Asylum Peckham

I know I am normally of good chipper

happy if I can raise a smile off you my lovely blog readers ( all two of you lol )

I have typed this about five times trying my hardest to be a bloody little ray of shiny sunshine for you all

but it’s a shite ask this last couple of weeks… I just don’t have it in me no matter how hard I try…

so anyway here I am and this is my best shot

 A culmination of my birthday ( now just a permanent reminder that I no longer get to share another birthday with my Dad )

two sudden bereavements of sweet sweet people who made more of an impression on me than they will ever know

( I wish I had told them how much they brightened my life while I had the chance )

 One of them the elderly Dad of my dear departed best friend Mandi ( I will miss his chats and hugs just like I still miss hers )

Bittersweet in all honesty as I know it has been his wish to join her since she left us but a loss just the same of a true gentleman

The other…  my lovely lovely Doreen… my Slimming World Mum of ten years… sudden and heartbreaking

  I have been feeling overwhelmed…

drowning in memories I normally keep well buried because letting them surface just quite frankly hurts too much

I have done the only thing I know how to do when I feel life is closing in on me…

I have walked… wellies on… coat pulled up tight… one foot in front of the other… miles and miles… my scruffy little dog has never been happier

Mid walk today I shook myself off and decided I need to get a grip and maybe just fake it until I could make it again

and so…

 I thought I better throw myself into something… take my mind of stuff

Blogging always makes me feel better…. I use my personal posts as a dump for my soul often

Then this happened

Quietly browsing for something to blog

I found these two blessings … or maybe they found me… who knows

Their beautiful… bonkers… mental… crazy… brilliant… madness filled wedding day in London

A warm hug of a reminder that not all of my memories are melancholy…

Some are simply utterly joyous and fill me to the brim with bursting ear to ear happiness

Thank you Cat & Paul

I needed you today

xx

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Sharron BlackMarch 10, 2016 - 9:33 pm

what an absolutely happy, fun filled, joyous day that looks! No wonder it made your spirits lift!

Big hugs to you for your sads.

keep doing what you do, and spreading those smiles far and wide, no matter how you feel inside…and remember always look upwards…never backwards

love always

me xxxx

Mandy RigbyMarch 10, 2016 - 9:52 pm

OMYLIFE !!
Andrea…. what a beautiful beautiful wedding with so much love and fun !
no wonder you felt so uplifted lovely girl !
the company… the deliriously happy couple .. and the stunning venue !
and you xxx
well done ! its a corker !!

I so feel for your loss… I truly do lovely xx

BIG Love
Mand xx

ShirleyMarch 11, 2016 - 8:46 pm

Amazing photos Andrea. Your work speaks volumes and displays such happy times. Xxx

NatalieMarch 16, 2016 - 9:38 am

Your work is as beautiful as you are inside and out. I’m so sorry you are going through so much pain at the minute. Keep on walking, keep on writing and shoot for you. I always shoot for me when I get overwhelmed and it helps so much. You are a wonderful person and I am so sure you lit a part of the life in each souls you have lost…..xx

Rebecca & Nick…A tattooed beauty of a wedding at The Master Builders, Hampshire

I havent blogged for flipping ages it seems…. a summer ram packed full of weddings and edits has put paid to that… but as Winter approaches

 ( although judging by my dog walk this morning its already bloody here…how did that happen ? ) my weddings aren’t coming at me in quite as quick fire succession like buses anymore so I am taking an hour or so to blog… its been a looooooooooong time !!! good job good old apple remembered my log in password as I have no clue what the heck it is now….

I just know it has at least three olympic medal winning swear words…a line of a nursery rhyme… a random number and a capital letter…

( F !! … cant you tell I was pissed off trying to get one accepted )

Anyway….. what better way to break my blogging drought than with this one ….

I absolutely god damn LOVE LOVE LOVE this gang !!!

I met them first in Italy when I shot Carina and Carl’s wedding and it was a blast to see them all again at Rebecca & Nicks gorgeous wedding at The Master Builders in Hampshire.… I honestly felt like I was at the wedding of a big gang of old friends and the large wine that was thrust in front of me the second I arrived  pretty much set the tone to what was an amazing two days

Rebecca & Nick…. Carina & Carl and all the rest of you beautiful beautiful people …can we do it again next year ?

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sandyNovember 11, 2015 - 3:05 pm

Absolutely gorgeous weddign Andrea, what a fab couple, love them all x

Rebecca FletcherNovember 11, 2015 - 7:52 pm

OH my God! I absolutely love this :)
Thank you so much for being there on our special day, it would never have been anyone but you shooting us. It was like having your favourite crazy auntie there and, I must say the stories the night before about crusty feet had me in utter stitches!
I love you millions, you insanely talented and fabulous woman!

Thank you

xxx

adminNovember 11, 2015 - 11:09 pm

hahahaha no way you remembered that !!!!!! hahahahah I’m actually piddling here !!!!!

Claire RobinsonNovember 12, 2015 - 6:18 pm

Love your words. Your photos make me weep they are so gorgeous!!!! How can one lady be so talented? Xxxx

Goodbye House… long may you run

Our beautiful welsh house is up for sale … I can’t even begin to tell you how sad this makes me

 Every single May bank holiday for the last 17 years we have rolled up…our tribe… Our whole family in one special magical place for a whole weekend…

our beautiful  beautiful tradition

flying kites… beach bonfires… sunsets… seals… the endless dolphin watch… rave music… afternoon naps… sunbathing… obstacle courses… Archie fainting when Larry finally caught him… beach walks… the bench… the bluebells…crab lining… The clock stuck on drinking time… the chilli incident… frittles… table drumming…the Division bell… I have my dignity…golf club in the sea… dog fish… seaweed monsters…”The Band”… no tin foil till Phwllheli … marshmallows … the window incident ( we didn’t break it !! )… Archie bin head… chewed teddies… the ghost… harmonicas… Jess the dog… Neil Young… pebbles on the table… cider at two… the stupid cooker… the path to the beach… Jessie’s duck impression… big breakfasts… magazines… £1′s for the meter  ”long may you run”

Two of my babies weren’t even born when we first started going… its all they have ever known… and now our babies babies join us… and now its gone

” Goodbye House… thanks for all the memories ” Jane said as we were leaving… all I want to do is cry

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Claire PennMay 4, 2015 - 5:12 pm

Aaaah… I LOVE these… so sad, I know how much it means to you. Clearly you all need to chip in and buy the thing! If not you’ll just have to find another house and make that the home from home for the next generation… xxxx

Larisa & Chris…. A Midsummer Wedding

Love displays itself in many ways… sometimes obvious… loud…triumphant and filled with utter joy… and sometimes… it can be the simplest of things.. a silent act of connection shared only with the person who holds your heart

 All of them move me … these little acts… I am the ultimate sucker for love … I cry when I am happy… always… its bloody ridiculous… I think when you find true happiness and love in your own life all you want is for others to feel its warmth…

and when you know someone else feels it too…

well…

it gets me every single time

Hidden behind one of the columns in the church I was a curious witness to something so loving and touching it will stay with me always…

I watched as Larisa walked alone into the church… packed to the rafters with happy family and friends she joined Chris… ready to be married

As they met he gently kissed her and I saw him slip something quietly into her hand… surprised… her fingers curled around the secret gift and without a single peep… recognition swept her eyes… she blinked away the threatening tears… steadied herself… breathed out a big breath of air and emptied her lungs… and smiled a smile so warm I swear I can feel its heat still

Into her hand he had slipped a tiny wooden mouse… lovingly carved by her dad … a precious reminder that her dad was with them… sharing in their day.. at her side still… and as much in his thoughts as hers

A tiny act of love and complete thoughtfulness that Larisa… and I… will remember always

Welcome to the wedding of Larisa and Chris …a day filled with love … laughter and happiness from start to finish… it feels an age ago now and yet I can remember it like it was yesterday

love

Andrea x

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Claire PennMarch 12, 2015 - 8:15 pm

Absolutely beautiful wedding, beautifully shot. Your intro alone had me welling up. Write a book bitch. Mills & Boon for the new generation. :) love ya xxxx

Hannah WebsterMarch 12, 2015 - 8:39 pm

Oh – that dress! *swoons* Beautiful. x

HannahMarch 12, 2015 - 9:41 pm

That made me do a happy cry! I love the picture of her in the doorway on her tippy toes. Looks so young and happy. Like a childish care free happy!

Mick ServodioMarch 12, 2015 - 10:54 pm

Love your work. :)

Mandy BMarch 13, 2015 - 11:40 am

Just gorgeous!!! Agree with Penn your get that book written xxxx